I'm having some focus issues today; please tell me that I'm not the only one.
Recently here at work things have been kind of slow. By slow I mean we only dispensed 8 doses today. And that type of slow translates into hours of trying to keep busy day after day while wondering if I will be employed next week or next month. It's a bit sad really. When we first started working here my boss & I made jokes about whether we could stand working together for the next thirty years or so since we are close to the same age & that time frame would get us to retirement. Almost ten years in, we can't make jokes about it anymore. I've hesitated about saying anything on here regarding the situation because all I can do at this point is speculate. And with these long slow days, I've got plenty of time to speculate!
I've been trying not to dwell on the 'what ifs' & 'maybes' & 'if onlys' & 'I wishes' & all of those other unproductive thought patterns. And at the risk of sounding like a broken record, I know I struggled with these things before Mom's death but it's much harder now. That's no excuse; it's just the reality I'm dealing with. The work still has to be done to try to align my thoughts & thinking patterns with God's. And He'll help me do it - if I'm willing & we all know that is the tricky part.
So while I've been here at work today I have tried to occupy myself with some grateful/joyful/happy thoughts that have nothing whatsoever to do with loss/grief/worry/anxiety/fearofimpendingdoom.
And the best part of my day so far...the Cherry Bird!
|I know this pic isn't the best, but if you could see this|
thing in real life you would holler, "Cherry Bird!!"
I hope that your day & your weekend is full of Cherry Bird goodness!