Lately I've been kind of hiding out. I had some news to share but it was the kind of news that you can't broadcast to the general public (or even to your close blogging friends) without making sure that all parties involved were notified.
And no, I'm not pregnant.
And no, my marriage isn't in crisis, we aren't changing churches, selling our house, or anything like that.
I'm losing my job.
The news wasn't wholly unexpected. Our pharmacy has always been a small one. We have always had less than 20 customers.
Just a quick note for those of you who don't know me in the real world: I don't often talk about the details of my job but I am a Nuclear Pharmacy Technician for Cardinal Health. For the next 10 days, that is.
Anyway, we're small, always have been. But in the last year our business has shrunk even more. So has the business in our field, overall. I'm not sure what all the factors are that play into the loss of business & it would likely bore you if I tried to explain what I do know. The bottom line is that I will be officially unemployed as of September 1st.
It's a weird feeling. I wish that I could say that I'm full of enthusiasm about all of the new opportunities I could pursue. But honestly I kind of feel like the hits just keep coming & that this has been the worst year of my life. That's just my dumb emotions talking & nobody wants to listen to their whining. Instead I've been trying to think of the things about my job that I won't miss - the long solitary drives (sometimes in scary winter weather), the early morning shift, the long afternoons when I usually don't have much to do, cleaning the pharmacy & surveying for contamination (my least favorite job), billing, filing...
And I'm trying not to think about the things I'll miss - drawing up doses, running quality control tests on the drugs, processing white blood cell labeling tests, my funny all-male coworkers...
*sigh* Change is painful but God knows I'd probably never leave this job unless He moved me. I suppose He wants to move me.
As far as future plans go, I'm just not sure. I was blessed to receive a severance package so there is a little less urgency about finding another job. I have made myself many checklists of projects that need to be completed. I'm going to spring clean our house, Dad's house, & both of our cars. I'm going to make a couple of lunch dates with friends. I'm going to have my friend Missy visit for a few days (all the way from Vienna - yeehaw!).
One of the most exciting plans I have for September will be to help Mike get ready for our first festival. We will be setting up a booth at a nearby fall festival to sell some Christmas ornaments & other varied crafts. Stay tuned for more details of Young Archer Woodcrafts. I can't wait to share some pics of what we're making & all the details of where you can see our products! It's been a long time coming & the free time that I'm going to have is giving us the extra push we need to get things underway.
I'm grateful that I don't walk the path of this life alone. The Lord has already given me some good promises from His word about how He leads His children. I know He is faithful. I hope that I can be faithful to Him & not worry & fret during this time of change. I'm also grateful He's given me Mike. His patience & calm spirit have been such a help during my freak outs. Yeah, those happen. I'm quite given to freak outs - anybody else? If you think of it, keep us in your prayers, bloggy friends. We appreciate it more than you know.